Easter!!!!

So as I expected, Easter was hard for me but I survived!!! We had Easter at my inlaws house yesterday... I ended up only being able to eat the thing soupy stuff and then ended up "dumping" it... Dumping Syndrome... I felt horrible and threw it up to be able to not be in pain.  I learned my lesson and am back on liquids only.  It sucks and I love variety but not at the expense of puking my guts out.  Plus I think that I am getting a bit overzealous with adding items. On any account we came home yesterday basically vegged as a family until Chloe went to bed and we then made up her Easter basket.  She also requested pumpkin bread so I made her some.  It was weird baking and not being able to eat ANY... However, I did pretty well and managed to make three loaves and gave one to our neighbor Scott.  He has so generously shared maple syrup with us this Spring.  Plus, it is nice to have someone else to share food with besides my family. He also helped out by checking on the dog when I was hospitalized, so I probably owe him more food or goodies, which I am sure that he won't turn down! LOL!

So today we stayed home.  I basically stayed away from food and spent time just drinking water and my protein water.  I did forget my vitamin until later and I did feel the effects of that.  I am also very tired, so while Chloe slept.  I slept on the couch.  Thankfully I have a husband who was willing to rub my feet while I slept.  The rest of the day was spent with a trip to Walmart to get me a new food processor (I broke the one my mom bought me).  We ended up with that and food for him and Chloe, drink stuff for me,  and some other items including a new jewelry box.  I need that because my jewelry is slowing getting larger and larger (in regards to ring size) and I see a visit to the jeweler in the near future.   I also called my Papa (dad) who has been super sick with necrotizing fasciitis to see how he was.  He was in good spirits and was asking questions about my surgery.  Since he is a science geek like me, we talked for a while. Chloe also talked to, "Grandfather"... She calls him, "Father" which is so funny to us. But all in all he is doing better.

So back to Easter food... I miss it but not enough to get sick trying it.... Chloe kept shoving chocolate in my face and I kept shoving it back in Bill's face.  It is hard but I realize that it is not worth dumping or feeling like crap as a result.  That has been the hardest thing for her because she LOVES to share.  Yes, we taught her to share but she doesn't understand that Mommy cannot have what she is eating now and she gets offended and upset with me.  She told me "time out" today when I said no... So obviously she thinks that I should.  It is hard to tell your child no especially when she is doing the right thing.  So now I just encourage her to share with Daddy.  Good thing he has PT and a fast metabolism to keep him in shape. 

My"wounds" have healed but my emotional and physically issues with food still remain.  I am learning self control even though it is hard to watch others eat things that I love.  However, I don't love being obese, or in danger of dying and I have to remind myself that in the end if is worth it! Happy Easter!!!!